Future Gymnasts

We had another ultrasound on January 26th. It was perfect timing since James was heading back to work on the 27th. At this appointment I learn I have already put on 14 pounds (yikes). Although I am mortified, Dr.

Martin is very pleased. She reminds me that my target weight gain is 45 - 55 pounds (double yikes) . . .But I guess I will take one for the team. Ben & Jerry, here I come!

Next thing I knew there was a little baby on the screen. All of a sudden the little "alienesque" creature inside me has a head and body and little arms and legs. And oh so active! With all the flipping and flopping, Dr. Martin had a hard time getting the heartbeat, but she did. And it was so strong - 166 beats per minute! That made mine skip a few.

Then we got to watch our next little gymnast. Just as active as the first with the flips and somersaults. And watching it's little arm moving towards it's head, just like it was ready to start sucking it's thumb! And another strong heartbeat! 164 beats per minute (again, mine skipped a few) . . .

It is just amazing to me to see these little babies forming in my tummy. . .I have heard so many people talking about the miracle of life and how being pregnant has changed them forever. Of course since I have never been through this before I thought, for the most part, that was a canned answer. Yes, I thought it would be amazing. And, yes, the idea of a little one growing inside you is awesome. But changing you forever? Not sure if I bought into that.

Now, only 11 weeks into this, I can honestly say my life has been changed forever. It wasn't until I met James that I knew I really wanted children. I have always loved children, don't get me wrong. But I have also always been the "step-mom". After my first marriage ended, I was grateful that I did not have children. And that thought loomed in my head. What if I have children and this ends? Can I do this on my own? All of those questions were answered when James and I had our first date. I knew I wanted children with him from the first time he looked deep in my eyes. And those questions flew out the window. Because I knew this was it. I thank God every day for the hand I have been dealt. All the heartache in my past has prepared me for this. Everlasting love and the opportunity to experience pregnancy. I am already a mom, but this time I get to start at the beginning!

Thank you honey!